Contemplation
Ruminations …
Today appears to be a day for ponderings and considerations or something. I have spent the last several hours deep in thought, not really about anything in particular, my mind has just been wandering from subject to subject. I have not come to any earth-shattering conclusions or anything but I have certainly spent some time thinking about stuff.
I have so much I really need to get done this weekend and all I have done so far is think. Gonna be a long ass weekend if I don’t get my butt in gear. I need some motivation …
What do ya’ll think?
I’m not sure …
What do you think of the template? I’m not sure if I like it or not.
In other news, I have now lost at least 175 pounds. I say “at least” because my highest known weight is not my highest weight. I’ve lost 175 pounds from my highest known weight about two weeks before my surgery on July 5, 2011.
I now have less than 87 pounds to go to reach my goal weight. I have not weighed my goal weight (other than from time to time when I’d manage to lose some weight for a while) for an extended period of time since I was in 9th grade.
Holy shit. It is now within my ability to imagine it and even better — to know that it IS coming — and I am so incredibly happy about that … I can’t even tell you how happy I am. There ain’t words.
I can’t walk for extended periods without swelling up and hurting. I can’t sit for extended periods without swelling up and/or going numb — it’s like my legs go to sleep and stay that way till I get up and move around. I can’t stand for extended periods without both swelling up and hurting like hell. So what?
I don’t care.
I can’t eat more than about five bites maximum without puking my guts up — and sometimes I still puke them up with less, but not terribly often anymore. (Knock wood.) Whatever.
I don’t care.
Today, I put on a pair of shorts that I wore at the end of July, just a couple weeks after my surgery, when Missy and I worked at the Celtic Festival and I just about died from the exertion that soon after surgery. 
They fell off. I mean, seriously fell off. As in, can’t get them to stay up no matter what. I’d have to tie them in a knot and they’d probably still fall off.
I can’t stop smiling.
I took a picture, but I was holding my shirt too high and you can see the front of my bra. I wasn’t even stretching the shorts, I was just holding them out. When I wore them in July, the elastic was still seriously stretched out.
Oh hell with it. You know what? I seriously don’t really care about this either. Le gasp! You can see my bra! (more…)
You just never know
Blissful Ignorance & Unexpected Epiphanies
Sometimes we do things just because. It feels good. It tastes, looks, smells or sounds good. It makes us happy or content. It fills the time or wastes it productively. We float along without really thinking about what we are doing or often even really why. Every once in a while we get a surprise though.
The silly online game we have been playing with some faceless person we only “know” because of the game might be just a time killer for us. A few moments of giddy pleasure or self-impressing skill may not actually be the whole picture. The glimpses we sometimes get of just how far reaching — or important — our impact might be to someone else can make us see things in a whole new light.
Next time you find yourself thinking about how you wasted the last two hours playing some stupid game or chatting in instant messages with some fool you don’t even know in real life, consider this: maybe you are doing exactly what God needs you to be doing right now. Maybe you are bringing comfort or distraction or just plain fellowship to one of those people and you don’t even realize it. But they do.
Things aren’t always what they seem, y’know? Life is sometimes a lot more than what we see on the surface.
See you on Thursday!
Doing my little part to help stop SOPA
For the 24 hour time period beginning at midnight tonight, this blog will be joining other blogs and sites (like Wikipedia) in protest over pending legislation in Congress known as SOPA – the “Stop Online Piracy Act.” To quote George Takei, “SOPA is aimed ostensibly at protecting copyrighted material, but as drafted threatens to choke off the Internet in much the way China does now -– by killing the source of oxygen.”
Takei continues:
In its worst proposed form, SOPA would require U.S. search engines, advertising networks and other providers to withhold their services to certain “flagged” sites, so that users couldn’t find them and payment processors couldn’t fund them. That’s right: Someone ELSE would get to decide what YOU can and cannot see. This is a flagrant violation of free speech and free association rights, and it must not be allowed to move forward.
Pushback from companies such as Google and Facebook and ordinary citizens has stalled SOPA, with its backers promising to revise the bill’s more controversial aspects. But you know how these things go. With big industry behind the bill, it will take a massive public outcry to kill it. I can tell you this: If SOPA is passed in its original form, or even some of the suggested “compromises,” sites like YouTube would go dark immediately.
The 1998 Digital Millennium Copyright Act lays out enforcement measures to deal with copyright infringement here in the US, but this doesn’t work with foreign sites. The backers of SOPA would have us believe that censorship here in the US will solve that overseas problem. It won’t. If you’d like to send your senator a message letting him or her know that, be sure to sign the on-line petition through this link.
I’ll see you all Thursday at midnight.
